tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-232923672011-07-14T20:32:59.828-07:00I am a jerk...if u haven't noticed...krej is jerk spelt backwards...krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.comBlogger791100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-38823117582568931042011-07-14T20:21:00.000-07:002011-07-14T20:32:59.845-07:00I am going to be my brother's best man!!! cool!! hahaha...<div><br /></div><div>My brother's gonna get married in the US...haha...and I will be flying over for the wedding...during my sch recess week...haha...I might miss 1 or 2 days of school...hmmm....</div><div><br /></div><div>But...it's worth it!!! it's my brother's wedding!!! haha....at least there is something for me to be happy about in all the stupid emo-ness...haha...</div><div><br /></div><div>hmm..I caught up with my ex ytd....it wasn't as weird as I expected...but...still...I felt like a total jerk....is like me wanting to take advantage...I was feeling emo...needed comfort...comfort which I knew she would provide...haha...I am such a cock...</div><div><br /></div><div>anyway, I didn't do it...haha...thank God....</div><div><br /></div><div>Been really trying to keep myself busy....with friends and family...and I stupidly skipped an outing with the Cambodia group...even though I wanted to go see them and chill with them over super nice dim sum....haha....but...of cuz...if I had gone...then I would probably show my emo face...which would be really stupid...so might as well dun spoil their fun and not turn up....</div><div><br /></div><div>I know it's a choice...a choice of whether I really want to let go...I guess I am just stubborn...which is plain stupid...y hold on to something that hurts u so bad?</div><div><br /></div><div>haha....</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-3882311758256893104?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-41696371416136584582011-07-13T10:34:00.000-07:002011-07-13T10:42:05.359-07:00Hello...<div><br /></div><div>Listening to jaylesslee songs now...nothing to do...so here I am...blogging...haha...</div><div><br /></div><div>Hmmm...things are still the same...keeping myself busy....trying my best NOT to think about it...but always still failing...haha...</div><div><br /></div><div>But, still...I am thankful for the ppl around me...they keep me gg...haha...can't imagine life without them...family and friends...haha...</div><div><br /></div><div>It's really nice to be able to sit down and chill with friends...whether a group or one to one...it's comfortable...and so open...no need to think so much...</div><div><br /></div><div>haha...something that I think not possible with her anymore...lol...</div><div><br /></div><div>"Her best days will be some of my worst.</div><div>She finally met a man that's gonna put her first.</div><div>While I'm wide awake, she's no trouble sleeping</div><div>Cos when a heart breaks, no it don't break even...."</div><div> </div><div> -Break even by The Script.-</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-4169637141613658458?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-24244647119082049092011-07-07T09:12:00.000-07:002011-07-07T09:31:04.775-07:00Yup...back from Cambodia...I died there and the situation...became worse...lol...dun wanna talk abt it here...so....<div><br /></div><div>ANYWAY...Cambodia was really great...wanna go back again...wanna teach the kids there again...and there's a Cambodia girl there who is DAMN CHIO and DAMN NICE...too bad could be juz friends...haha....</div><div><br /></div><div>ehh...besides the current situation....I still have 2 new pretty big things on my mind...</div><div><br /></div><div>first...I pissed my roomie off...cuz I betrayed his trust by telling our friend abt a few things which he felt should not be shared....then...now...cold war...yes...I am having cold war with 2 ppl who are the last few I want to have cold war with....just great...</div><div><br /></div><div>and then...the 2nd thing is...my local cip....kena ps last min....now have to rearranged everything within the month....stress stress....</div><div><br /></div><div>didn't know my life would be so exciting after Cambodia trip....</div><div><br /></div><div>I should write a song liao....</div><div>Title:</div><div>Bittersweet.</div><div><br /></div><div>When we first met,</div><div>had no idea,</div><div>you would break my heart.</div><div><br /></div><div>It was always me,</div><div>who made things,</div><div>worse for you.</div><div><br /></div><div>So I guess it's alright,</div><div>that I'm hurting.</div><div><br /></div><div>Know you tried,</div><div>to be friendly</div><div>to me.</div><div><br /></div><div>But in the end,</div><div>u felt discomfort</div><div>and left me in the cold.</div><div><br /></div><div>It took me too long,</div><div>to accept that.</div><div>It might be too late,</div><div>can we be good friends again?</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-2424464711908204909?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-40169116363279420192011-06-17T08:31:00.000-07:002011-06-17T08:34:57.354-07:00almost lost count the days ever since....haha...anyway...wanna blog a bit before flying off to cambodia!! haha...but this is a short one...<div><br /></div><div>wanna say my feelings are...</div><div><br /></div><div>Dread. Excited. Uncertain.(if it is an emotion...haha...)</div><div><br /></div><div>Heaven save me....</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-4016911636327942019?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-4042079024046150702011-06-10T09:51:00.000-07:002011-06-10T09:53:08.342-07:00Bittersweet...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-404207902404615070?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-64377237030786504612011-06-07T09:00:00.000-07:002011-06-07T09:01:20.953-07:00=)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-6437723703078650461?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-33541099998857684472011-06-04T08:41:00.000-07:002011-06-04T08:46:58.569-07:00everytime I see how comfortable she is with other ppl....it hurts...it hurts even more when it's him...(another him...) haha....<div><br /></div><div>too bad for me....haha....at least they are happy....lol....</div><div><br /></div><div>=x</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>they played mahjong at her place today....I didn't go...went ahead with my family to catch a movie...</div><div>haha...juz nice...I am not there...things were probably better...and so many hes were there...all great company for her...haha...</div><div><br /></div><div>shit....I didn't even eat bitter gourd and I am feeling super bitter....</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-3354109999885768447?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-65978970732316913982011-06-03T09:57:00.000-07:002011-06-03T09:58:30.186-07:00nothing much....nothing much....<div><br /></div><div>haha...I WANNA KNOW WHAT'S GG ON WITH HER LIFE DAMN IT!!!</div><div><br /></div><div>yup...nothing much...nothing much....</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-6597897073231691398?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-50490068813272410352011-06-02T11:32:00.000-07:002011-06-02T11:39:14.832-07:00hais....gg crazy...over dota...lol....juz a distraction...looking at how she is so normal at a guy who I believe still likes her but did the right thing at the right time...is killing me...haha...but I guess he deserves it. he didn't do what I did...lol...now I am doing what he is doing...but I know it's all too late...haha...<div><br /></div><div>well...at least he stands a chance...and if he makes her happy...that's better isn't it...but I am freaking bitter.......lol....</div><div><br /></div><div>oh well.....</div><div><br /></div><div>From quite close to...almost a stranger...haha....</div><div><br /></div><div>right now...dun want to see her, dun want to sms her...dun want to have anything to do with her...but at the same time...feeling vice versa...lol...</div><div><br /></div><div>the former...becuz...I am going to get the feeling that she isn't comfortable with me...which is so true....and then the latter..becuz...well...u noe the reason....</div><div><br /></div><div>God...this is really killing me...apart from my muscle aches and sore throat...haha...</div><div><br /></div><div>Is my absence felt at all? haha...guess not....</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-5049006881327241035?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-70292322159118734652011-06-01T09:50:00.000-07:002011-06-01T09:54:09.308-07:00day 9 since what u might ask....haha...well...it's day 9 of....avoidance...lol...day 9 of her freedom from me..haha...yup...I haven't approached her...talked to her much...less than 10 sentences altogether...I think....<div><br /></div><div>sad that it has to come to this...but I guess it shouldn't have been like that from the moment she found out that I liked her...hais...too late...haha...now doing what little damage control I can do....</div><div><br /></div><div>at the end of it all...I juz hope that we could be true friends...no lies...be comfortable with each other....I guess I am asking too much...haha....can't help it....</div><div><br /></div><div>as one of my seniors always say...</div><div><br /></div><div>oh well....</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-7029232215911873465?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-22178345678853249112011-05-20T09:58:00.000-07:002011-05-20T09:59:11.938-07:00juz wanna say this....<div><br /></div><div>I AM GRATEFUL FOR THE PPL AROUND ME WHO CARE ABT ME!! =))</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-2217834567885324911?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-78827626744080280572011-05-18T06:15:00.000-07:002011-05-18T06:20:21.602-07:00well....first...I have really made the decision to stop doing rubbish...but apparently...I still only juz did today...so...we will see if I am able to stop myself........<div><br /></div><div>then 2nd.....I know that I am suppppppppppperrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy belowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww the ladder......so low....that..I am not sure...time is able to save me....lol....</div><div><br /></div><div>and is all my freaking doing....and the best thing is I can't stop myself....</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>but I HAVE TO...or...I am going to lose her....totally....</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>save me.............</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>I am doing my best..........not to screw things up as it already is....</div><div>but...somehow...I always do something stupid again.......................................................................</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>I.am.such.a.cock.</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-7882762674408028057?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-28090270090900650302011-05-08T03:05:00.000-07:002011-05-08T03:08:42.227-07:00ehh...some random thoughts...ehh...I should be less selfish...I still have selfish thoughts...wanting to push my limits...pushing her level of patience and tolerance...<div><br /></div><div>I am doing my best not to over-step it...haha...but sometimes I still do...sigh...</div><div><br /></div><div>move on move on!!</div><div><br /></div><div>anyway, general elections juz ended...and worker's part won both aljunied and hougang!!! woohoo!!!! haha...I feel sad for george yeo though..he is a good man...hopefully he sticks around...</div><div>not forgetting mr chiam see tong!!!! A GREAT man...wonder what is he going to do next...</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-2809027009090065030?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-84334650149691419502011-05-06T05:01:00.000-07:002011-05-06T05:18:16.018-07:00I know she can do it herself...and that she prefers to do it herself...but...I wanna help...cuz I want her to be happy...and also...I wanna be useful to her...at least...make me worth juz that a bit more to her...but of cuz...it doesn't work that way...and at the end of the day...she isn't going to feel grateful at all...not one bit...becuz it was all voluntary on my part...is sad...but I gotta accept it...<div><br /></div><div>y do all these...waste of my time...but seeing her smile after helping a bit...erases my suffering...only for that short moment...</div><div><br /></div><div>today...I hardly got to spend time with her...and I really wanted time with her...but of cuz...as always...she is not willing to give it...the reason is obvious...so...I guess it's juz too bad for me...gotta wait...for the next time...before I can really spend time with her...</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-8433465014969141950?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-52408196373271621112011-05-06T03:05:00.000-07:002011-05-06T03:11:48.141-07:00I feel very sad now...a small thing that we agreed on....she juz forgot like that....I know it's stupid...but I can't help it...she is someone who has a good memory somemore...so...what does this say?? haha...I guess I already know the answer...a long long time ago....and the pain....is still the same....haha...I am pathetic....<div><br /></div><div>and now...I am supposed to accompany his friend to eat dinner...so that even though I need to go back home...I wun need to go back tgt with them...haha....i am seriously such a big joke....juz kill me seriously...juz kill me....</div><div><br /></div><div>my emotions is worse than a stock market....</div><div><br /></div><div>will she stop doing things that would not hurt me...haha...guess not...I was juz happy awhile back when I helped to arranged something for them...but juz a simple agreement that she forgot about...and I am back to my emotional wreck...lol...</div><div><br /></div><div>and here I was thinking that..my priorities for at least these 3 weeks should be studies....WHO AM I KIDDING...</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-5240819637327162111?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-82734498943690143872011-04-30T21:45:00.000-07:002011-04-30T22:06:31.672-07:00lol...I am giving myself tons and tons of excuses not to study....but of cuz we all know what's the constant main excuse that I give myself...lol...<div><br /></div><div>ytd...they went out to study...through the night...I was invited...kinda last min...but still invited...lol...as much as I would die to go(a bit contradicting I know, die already how to go), I turned down...haha...gave a perfect reason...said that I couldn't stay out late consecutive nights...but I still went back home late ytd night...lol...managed to talk to a few of my gd friends last night...got scolded by them...lol...one of them super fierce against what I am doing...and allowing myself to drown like that...I told him...that's what I chose...but not sure if I am ready to face the consequences...lol...my friend also asked me...if it was worth it....the answer so obvious...</div><div><br /></div><div>anyway, after returning home last night...I couldn't sleep...kept thinking abt them studying tgt...God knows how much I really wanted to be there...but it was perfect...two guys, two girls. double date u know? haha....me gg would make 5. lol.....I wanted to so much to know what's gg on there..and if there's anything I can help with, I would do that...but I didn't want to disturb them...in the end I did btw...lol...couldn't help it...was a little worried...wondered they would study till what time...basically kept wondering....lol...it was a bad night of slp ytd....</div><div><br /></div><div>I hope they had fun...and had a good rest as well...cuz that's all I can do....</div><div><br /></div><div>y do I taste bitterness when I haven't eaten any bitter gourds...</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-8273449894369014387?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-78230270508058411462011-04-27T23:29:00.000-07:002011-04-27T23:33:47.227-07:00that's how my emotions is now like...lol...I care too much...<div><br /></div><div>and here I am already made the decision about moving on...haha....</div><div><br /></div><div>U can't always get what u want...but if u try hard enough...u might get what u need...does it apply to me...haha...</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-7823027050805841146?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-29973099543488092002011-04-27T00:42:00.000-07:002011-04-27T00:47:17.092-07:00things seem a bit normal now...well...as normal as it could be under such circumstances....<div><br /></div><div>abt them...even more things have happened...and from I see...they are good things...happy of cuz...but can't stop that sad feeling too...</div><div><br /></div><div>again..........her small actions and small inactions...driving me nuts...in both sad and happy ways...gosh...</div><div><br /></div><div>as I sit waiting....hoping....for that little wave...or eye contact....there was none...</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-2997309954348809200?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-40371329426959855522011-04-25T07:09:00.000-07:002011-04-25T07:16:24.606-07:00I am so afraid of meeting her now...that she would hurt me(and she would)...haha...becuz I keep having hopes...even expectations...and she fufill none....I keep getting hurt....<div><br /></div><div>Should I smile that we can still be friends...or should I cry that that is all there is to it...</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-4037132942695985552?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-23153188142229575192011-04-25T06:45:00.000-07:002011-04-25T07:03:25.480-07:00haha...yup...the title sums up my feeling right now...as in really..right now...it happened while I was in the shower by the way...lol....<div><br /></div><div>and and...I have been reminiscing...a lot...like really a lot...cuz is all I have..haha...*shakes head*</div><div><br /></div><div>tell u a bigger joke...I have made a decision..I am MOVING ON....lol....but the entire message in the front...completely contradicted my decision...lol...</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>~~~If loving u with all my heart's a crime...then I am guilty~~~</div><div> -Blue, Guilty.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-2315318814222957519?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-14034765881372225902011-04-21T00:41:00.000-07:002011-04-21T00:58:14.278-07:00ehh...I am Still thinking of her...lol...as usual...tell u a joke...I kinda lost his wallet...cuz I was the last to take hold of it...and then I am doing my best to find it...partly cuz I lost it...and also partly I know she wun be happy that he lost his wallet...haha...so...I might seem like a nice guy doing my best to find it for HIM...but actually...I am doing it for both him AND HER..haha...I am seriously a joke.<div><br /></div><div>things have been pretty good for both of them...haha...I am happy...and sad at the same time...lol...happy that she's happy with him...sad that...many times I am left alone becuz of that...but I guess it can't be helped...it's for their future...and I really dun want to do anything that might harm it...although some dark side of me might be tempted to do juz that at times...lol...</div><div><br /></div><div>yes...I admit...I do want her for myself...becuz I know once she belongs to someone else...that's the end of me..haha...she will stick to him and I have no idea what would be left of me...</div><div><br /></div><div>and that's precisely y I REALLY gotta move on...lol....I've lost count the number of times ppl telling me that...and myself saying the same thing over and over again....</div><div><br /></div><div>and just ytd...I did something stupid again...something that I did for her..but she was not happy with it. she was feeling tired and I wanted her to take a bus tgt with him that requires less walking back to her hostel while I board another bus alone back to sch...kill 2 birds with one stone right? WRONG...she felt it wasn't natural and doesn't want me to do it again...lol...me and my stupid self right...can't even take care of myself...still want to take care of ppl....</div><div><br /></div><div>I am hopeless le...lol...</div><div><br /></div><div>a few days back....she needed to buy polaroid film...cheap ones...she asked me for help....and I went on to call the places where my friend recommended that could get at a cheaper rate...after that...I went to the place to buy it...telling her it was on the way when it was super out of the way....lol...</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Y am I still doing all this shit when I get nothing in return..when it is not appreciated at all...not wanted...and not needed...lol...whatever that I do...or dun do...she doesn't care at all...doesn't give a shit...lol...</div><div><br /></div><div>but I know I will continue to do it...till I move on....</div><div><br /></div><div>I am living for her happiness....for now...lol...</div><div><br /></div><div>such.a.cock.</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-1403476588137222590?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-30609322165377249092011-04-15T10:37:00.000-07:002011-04-15T10:47:08.809-07:00hmmm...things have improved a bit...and I should stop asking for more...is like...definitely...she wun come and find me as before and I gotta accept it...lol...<div><br /></div><div>right now, I keep telling myself not to care so much abt her...and yet...I know...it is not quite possible...and I keep wanting to make her happy...but I also know....I am not the one to make her happy. so what I do is try to see where ever I can help...I will do my best...of cuz...things might not work out the way I want it when i try to help...so now...everything I do when it comes to both of them...I think not twice...but thrice...</div><div><br /></div><div>right now..she is allowing herself to ask me for help...that's great...but like always...I will want more...more of her letting me to be there for her...</div><div><br /></div><div>I gotta stop myself from wanting more...otherwise I might upset her again...</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>sigh...</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-3060932216537724909?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-40649843673181244962011-04-12T22:47:00.000-07:002011-04-12T22:52:19.714-07:00gonna be a short post....cuz actually want to tweet this point..but afraid of the repercussions...so here I am blogging what I wanna tweet...lol....<div><br /></div><div>I HATE THIS FEELING....totally not being myself....especially in front of her....and the way she looks at me now....I HATE IT EVEN MORE....no sparkle....no sadness....NOTHING....we can't talk one-one now...cuz...I am so freaking tempted to ask abt non-surface things...and she doesn't want to tell me anything....</div><div><br /></div><div>I really really really need to get used to this....my goodness...save me...lol...</div><div><br /></div><div>at least things are gg gd for her on her side with him...haha..</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-4064984367318124496?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-73386946655618612022011-04-08T10:21:00.000-07:002011-04-08T10:32:26.375-07:00hmmm...today my mood much better le...but...damn sian...cuz she removed her blog...and is not cuz of me...lol...is cuz of someone else who she might still have feelings for.....siansssssssssssssssssss.....I am not the reason for her sadness...and neither am I the reason for her happiness....haha...seriously...what I am sia...juz a cock friend....haissssssssss....guess slowly...my pain will numb?? <div><br /></div><div>she can so easily do what she is doing to me now...(friend-to-friend talk, no more htht....no more one-to-ones....) cuz...she only treated me as a friend...but right now all I am asking for is allow me to be there for her....hahaha...toooo badddd for me I guess...she wants me to move on...and she doesn't believe in being best friends with someone who has feelings for her....which I think is reasonable...but her actions...</div><div><br /></div><div>is.totally.killing.me.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>ARGH.</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-7338694665561861202?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-52761002528103832122011-04-05T07:00:00.000-07:002011-04-05T07:04:29.632-07:00is she going to find me...or not...worse....she is treating me the same as him...as someone who she doesn't like....fantastic.....haha....just simply fantastic....simply simply fantastic..................................................................................................................................GOd pls help me not to be so emooooo......haha.......fantastic.................simply fantastic...................................................................................................................................................<div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>it hurts...</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-5276100252810383212?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-7453490449699909522011-04-04T21:41:00.000-07:002011-04-04T21:49:09.130-07:00not body-aching...haha...heart...as usual...lol...anyway...she had a good talk with me...and yes...she has already long known what a bastard and jerk I am....just that she has acted blur...and what a toot I was in convincing myself that she didn't know a loooooooong time ago....and even more what I a toot I am in still holding on to her...<div><br /></div><div>haha...knowing that it was me on the phone abt her....and her tone was so sian....haha...never mind...it's expected....</div><div><br /></div><div>things will never be the same again....and I still dunno what the fish am I doing...holding onto nothing...</div><div><br /></div><div>.......................haisssssss.....</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-745349044969990952?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-12190081740462821842011-04-01T10:10:00.000-07:002011-04-01T10:14:16.863-07:00haha...yup...my resolution is...be less emo!!! keep myself busy!!! focus on the things I need to do!! and ONLY IF I AM NEEDED...then I be there for her...the feelings sucks...but that's the situation.<div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>YUPPS...I kinda xiang tong le...lol...thanks to friends who bothered to listen me out...haha... =))</div><div><br /></div><div>FINALLY..a positive post right? haha...I thought I better write this down before I starting gg the emo way again...haha... =)</div><div><br /></div><div>"You have the weapons in your life, use them to fight for your life" adapted from suckerpunch...haha...a movie that caught me by surprise... =)</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-1219008174046282184?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-18339187588663595482011-03-30T11:41:00.000-07:002011-03-30T11:43:30.275-07:00well...so much for..."I wun sacrifice your sadness becuz of him...." haha...and I know I should be focusing on my maths...instead of dwelling on it...but I seem to allow myself to dwell on it...<div><br /></div><div> =x</div><div><br /></div><div>okok...back to work...back to work...</div><div><br /></div><div>hope at least my sacrifice was worth it...</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-1833918758866359548?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-84976900165035072452011-03-29T06:40:00.000-07:002011-03-29T06:56:20.376-07:00went swimming today....haha...ya...I know...it's amazing...and I tell u one thing even more amazing...I dunno what came over me...but I am a very bad swimmer and yet I still went into adult pool swim....and end up almost drowning...and guess what was on my mind while I was drowning...haha...I told myself to stay calm...and then I was thinking...shit...dun let me spoil their day.....lol....and also guess what...I know that my drowning incident...only caused her to think..."shit lahz, y must have this drowning incident, what if spoil the fun mood how?" haha....and I was blaming myself the entire time juz now....y was I so stupid to do what I did....lol....and also...this incident...really made me think....I am really weak in the water....something that she is really strong at...and something that she loves....haha..really worlds apart...and really showed my pathetic self to her today....but ANYWAY...ALL she would be thinking is...what is he thinking and whether he enjoyed himself...juz fish my life...seriously....<div><br /></div><div>asked her if she was ok having a gd chat....and she said no comments....haha...wow...how things have changed isn't it....and I dunno how am I going to continue living in a situation like that....</div><div><br /></div><div>well...I guess...the thing I can console myself is...she is happy...which means...I should be happy...haha...of cuz I am happy for her...whenever I see her smile...I can't help but make a mental smile to myself...but like always...behind that mental smile...there is that same sadness....sadness knowing that I am not the one....haha....</div><div><br /></div><div>haisssss...MOVE ON DAMN IT!!! MOVE ON!!!!!!!!</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-8497690016503507245?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-80730679647430100722011-03-28T11:33:00.000-07:002011-03-28T12:16:40.019-07:00<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: Arial, 'Helvetica Neue', sans-serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px; ">It sucks when you know that you need to let go but you can't because you're still waiting for the impossible to happen...</span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: Arial, 'Helvetica Neue', sans-serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px; "><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: Arial, 'Helvetica Neue', sans-serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px; ">found it on twitter...can't retweet...scared too obvious...so write it here...haha...</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: Arial, 'Helvetica Neue', sans-serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px; "><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;">I should really be doing my work now or slping...but I think I gotta let it off my chest first...before I do anything else...</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;">yup...so...another round of emo thoughts...lol...well...actually...I think I am a bit better le...just that...today...she reinforced her point again...the point which really made me emo a lot the past few days...and that is...I am juz like any other guy friend to her....no matter how much I care for her and do things for her...I would only be a friend...</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;">and worse still....at the end of it all...I juz got a feeling that I might end up with nothing....I seriously am screwed....is like y am I willing to sacrifice so much for her...and yet knowing there is nothing for me in return....I have come to realise that I chose to neglect my hall friends and always hang out with my course ppl(dun get me wrong...I really like my course ppl...but I like her more..haha...)...is cuz of her....I know it is not worth it...but I can't help it...it is seriously damn cock....</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;">she said this to me...that she wouldn't stay if he wouldn't stay...or she would not be accompanied by her gd friend...but then...what abt me....I have chosen to neglect my hall friends mainly cuz of her....and in the end...I would be left alone....I guess...it's the choice that I made...and I gotta live with it....what a foolish choice that I made...</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;">I told her this...I hope when u get attached...hope u dun forget about me...and she said this...u know me...I would neglect friends becuz of bf....</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;">hais...I really dun ask for much....yes...I am still holding onto 0 hope...but at the same time...all I am asking for...is a little more care towards me...</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;">my goodness...this is really the first time...my life is focused mainly on 1 person...and it is killing me...cuz there is juz nothing in it for me...no appreciation...no concern....no consideration...nothing....</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;">and the best part is...she will never know...cuz she will be in her own world...</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;">yup...so what does all this point to...I GOTTA LET GO DAMN IT!.</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;">really wanna scream out..but...realise there is no voice for me to scream out...</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;">hmmm....I better go back to normal by tmr morn....got things planned...and I shouldn't spoil it...</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;">I feel so used....but that's when I feel I am needed....and that's when I feel I can do something for her...that perhaps she might appreciate it...but at the end of it....I would be alone...</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;">she really has no idea how much she means to me...and how much she is hurting me at the same time...haha...is really amazing...</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;">previously...when I ask her out for a chat...she wouldn't mind...now...one word from him...and she says no...how easily I am dismissed just like that....</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;">Y AM I STILL DOING THINGS FOR HER WHEN I KNOW IT IS ALL FOR NOTHING.....</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;">I really need someone to talk to...lol...</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-8073067964743010072?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-60917716641780531712011-03-27T04:59:00.000-07:002011-03-27T05:03:37.371-07:00haissssssssssssssssss.....in the end...I still can't stop myself...it seems no matter how much I tell myself to NOT care about her...I still go on and do something stupid to show that I care...which again...might cause her to feel uncomfortable....arghhhhhhhhhhhhh...............maybe I should juz siam awhile? I mean........y can't I just care about her as per normal............I mean...really...haisssssssss.....if my fears were to come true...I really dunno what I am to do...<div><br /></div><div>help....<br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-6091771664178053171?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-9330809474809916372011-03-26T20:16:00.000-07:002011-03-26T20:26:19.310-07:00ytd was a gd day...spent 8 hours working...talking cock with xy...getting scolded by her for being so persistent...lol...I kinda deserved it...after that went to find my good friends whom I really haven't caught up in awhile...it was nice to finally getting to talk to them...and get updates from them...<div><br /></div><div>and I had a looooooooooong talk with one of them...lol...more for me than for him lahz...the more I talked abt my life...then the sadder I became...lol...cuz really...it's juz too foolish...and now...I try to be my old self in front of her..which .is getting harder and harder for me...becuz...I will think of the things that I went through cuz of her...but if I keep thinking like that...it's never ending and we will only drift further apart even as friends...SO....*slap slap* I gotta wake up...and juz continue be there for her ONLY when she needs me...and stop hoping...cuz there is NO hope....(lol...I've lost count the no. of times that I told myself to give up...and I've lost hope in telling myself to give up...)</div><div><br /></div><div>MEANWHILE...pls let me juz focus on my work....cuz I've been pushing them wayyyyyyy too farrrr back...cuz seriously no mood...which again is an excuse...my goodness...I am gg nutsssssss.......hmm...gotta keep myself busy....cuz everytime...when I stop thinking about something...she comes to my mind...</div><div><br /></div><div>hmm...start work?? haha....</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-933080947480991637?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-40087695899320089542011-03-25T10:26:00.000-07:002011-03-25T11:00:12.723-07:00I am really starting to feel the tiredness of it all...the ups and downs...juz her small actions...or inactions...affects me a lot...is madness...and it's juz so stupid...I always want to be there for her...but many times I tell myself I am not needed...and then...the very few times...when I am needed...(is for her selfish reasons btw) I am not there for her...because I tell myself that I am not needed...which is true...haha...well...the good news is...becuz right now....all she cares is him...so...whatever that I do or don't do...would not matter...haha..<div><br /></div><div>yup...that's how sad my state has become...where I am willing to be there when she needs me..and when she doesn't...I would do my best to disappear...(super hard I tell u) well...the good news...(actually is bad news) is that she doesn't need me...haha...yup...cuz I can't do much for her anyway...and when I try to do something for her...I get rejected..again...what a joke...</div><div><br /></div><div>but ok lahz...at least..now my mood...a bit more stable...not as cock...ok..still cock...</div><div><br /></div><div>and and...I REALLY GOT TO LEARN TO CONTROL MY FACIAL EXPRESSIONS...I THINK I AM TOO OBVIOUS SOMETIMES...SHIT....just quiet a moment...then is noticeable that something is wrong already...die...</div><div><br /></div><div>on a side note...I got to play pool today!! with my cousin...thankfully he and his friends didn't mind me joining them...I had fun!! =)</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>I want her to care more about me...but I guess that's not possible...</div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-4008769589932008954?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-4126316384038394402011-03-24T04:20:00.000-07:002011-03-24T04:29:11.168-07:00today...I showed my black face to that one person who I told myself not to show to...haha...fantastic...at least...the gd news is...she wasn't too affected by it...as usual...haha...<div><br /></div><div>the feeling is so cock...hoping that my emo-ness will affect her...(which means she cares abt me) and yet at the same time...dun want my emo-ness to affect her...(u want ur loved ones to be hurt mehz?)</div><div><br /></div><div>yup...here to rant a few things before I go back to my work...</div><div><br /></div><div>I got a feeling this is going to be a loooooong sem for me...I mean...there are juz too many times that I keep thinking of her...and cuz of that...too many times I put myself down over it....so actually...end result...I dun really care about her...juz allowing myself to get caught up in my own emo-ness....yup....</div><div><br /></div><div>haha...really ranting here liao...cuz I think I have bothered enough ppl abt it...and is always the same things over and over again....</div><div><br /></div><div>like my friend said...find someone else...MOVE ON...haha...I am still holding on to 0 hope...and worse still...I am seriously not the kind of guy for her anyway...so even if she does like me(which wun happen btw) I wun be able to truly make her happy...</div><div><br /></div><div>that's the kind of person I am...</div><div><br /></div><div>SO....CONCLUSION....I should juz go bang my head onto the wall...haha...get amnesia or something...but I dun wanna forget my friends and family....just perhaps this stupid feeling of lack of self-worth in that person's eyes...</div><div><br /></div><div>her every action and inaction....drives me crazy....I am really screwed....</div><div><br /></div><div>Enough rambling....haha...BACK TO WORKKKKKKKKKKKKK!</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-412631638403839440?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-48212541569306911452011-03-23T11:56:00.000-07:002011-03-23T12:13:28.014-07:00lol...cried a bit today...2nd time I cried cuz of her...but I know it's nothing...others have gone through worse...but juz wanna say...this is new for me...and I dun like it one bit...<div><br /></div><div>I keeping doing things...hoping for something....but knowing there wun be anything...</div><div><br /></div><div>As I try to watch over her(and she totally doesn't want me to do that for her...so I say...try...lol...)...all she does is look another way...</div><div><br /></div><div>As I go through stupid waves of sadness...all she does is look another way...</div><div><br /></div><div>yes...there are ppl caring about me(thank God)...but y that one person whom I want to care about me...only just treats me the " same as everybody"....it hurts even more cuz all I care about right now...is her...</div><div><br /></div><div>lol....I am such a joke....never mind...I will do my best to be happy for her(after all...this is all I can do...to console myself...lol...just pathetic...)because the previous parts of this post...is juz my selfish me acting up again...yup...</div><div><br /></div><div>thought I could handle this...but I guess....I was too confident of myself...</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>truly...madly...deeply...suffering...</div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-4821254156930691145?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-60911436042612377192011-03-22T13:04:00.000-07:002011-03-22T13:12:08.639-07:00<span class="Apple-style-span" >yup...as much as i always keep wanting to care abt her...I know...all the more I gotta NOT care abt her...</span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >GOTTA FOCUS ON STUDYING!!!!</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >On a side note, am thankful I have a few friends who I can lean on...</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >Knowing I gotta move on....and yet...still holding on....holding onto something that has zero hope...</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >A simple remark...and yet it hurt me quite a bit..."I treat u the same as everybody else..." haha...thanks for giving me a super painful wake up call...</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >sorry for the jumbled up thoughts...that's pretty much what's gg on in my mind now...lol...</span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-6091143604261237719?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-70761980261814121552011-03-20T09:11:00.000-07:002011-03-20T09:47:18.404-07:00<span class="Apple-style-span" >haha...I juz realised that my wall paper is a bit making my journal hard to read...but maybe it should be that way...since I think this journal will most probably be a place of emo thoughts...lol...cuz if I dun write out somewhere or say it out somewhere...I think I will go crazy...</span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >yup...so...anyways...right now...my thoughts are super messed up...I am constantly getting distracted...allowing myself to be distracted...and not doing my work...which is really bad...</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >I juz delivered what is most probably one of the worst news to someone close to me...making that person really really sad...and at the end of it...all I felt was...guilt...seriously...I am such a cock... and plus...here I am still thinking about someone else...just fantastic...haha...junxian..u are probably one of the biggest jokes that happened...</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >yup...so...basically that's about it... quite a short summary of my thoughts...haha..will definitely be back for more emo thoughts(and hopefully some happy thoughts as well)...haha...no worries...I wun do anything stupid...hopefully... =)</span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-7076198026181412155?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-90135366272356811492008-04-25T06:01:00.000-07:002008-04-25T06:11:03.926-07:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">HELLO WORLD! I'M BACK FROM HELL! =D haha, ok lahz, it wasn't really super duper uber bad...but it was bad...very tough for me...well, my lieutenant tells me that extreme tough is extreme good...so...haha, just gotta bear with it...but it kinda sucks to see the rest coping pretty well while I'm the only one struggling with the exercises...haha, never mind, who ask me never train much...I guess I have to push myself much more than the rest during these 9 weeks..and hopefully can pass my BMT in one piece...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">ehh, lots of things happened in the 2 weeks...and I'm a bit lazy to type all of them...so I shall roughly sum it up...my bunk mates are ok...I like my platoon mates...and definitely super thankful my commanders are nice people...so I just have to make sure I do the right thing...haha...the food at tekong tastes surprisingly decent...and really, I'm starting to eat more...the food they give is as though for free...damn...my tummy doesn't seem to be shrinking...and yes...I'm right now a chao tah botak guy...but I wouldn't say my looks have changed to the point of people can't recognising me. And right now...I'm going to enjoy my 2 days back at singapore!!!! (tekong really makes me cherish life back at home more...haha...) </span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">take care all!!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-9013536627235681149?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-48347639961909730252008-04-09T05:35:00.000-07:002008-04-09T05:46:10.952-07:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">Yup...it's that time of the year...NS...which stands for National Service if you don't already know...my heart is like...nooooooooooooooooooooo, I don't wantttttttttttttt...but then again...my mind tells me that this would be a good experience...plus it forces me to exercise and get fit...so...I shouldn't have any complaints....right?? haha, well, of course I do!!!!!!!!!!!!</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">I'm going to miss everyone...my family...friends...home...food(anything that does not say NS food and food rations)...computer games..snooker and pool..lol...and the list goes on...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">While I'm kind of gone from singapore(mainland), PLEASE TAKE CARE, EVERYONE...haha, junxian will be back meaner, leaner and...stronger(can't think of words that rhyme with the first 2...) haha, all this is just hoping...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">Adieu! =)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-4834763996190973025?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-91643392717580504752008-03-24T02:40:00.000-07:002008-03-24T02:51:32.717-07:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">Haha, I know the "BOO!" is not scary at all...well, speaking of scary... I recently went to watch a horror film with my secondary school friend...for once, it was one-one with a girl. ;) And what a movie to start off with...the orphanage...it was thankfully...not too scary...otherwise I'd have thrown every inch of my face in front of her, as you know, I'm not exactly what you call a hardcore horror fanatic...more like a soft wimpy fellow who tries to cover his eyes whenever a scary part is arriving...haha...how pathetic, well, that's me. =x </span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">Oh oh, another point of scary...ehh...so about the movie date..both of us caught up with one another and the happenings around us and the people we know in our secondary school days...and she told me one scary thing...our friend actually is planning to get married...apparently, he got her girlfriend pregnant...I know you might hear many of such stories...well, it's the first time it happen to a person I know...and it sort of hit me...how much things have changed...it's like, it seems only a few years back that I was playing basketball with him...and the next thing you know, I'm invited to his wedding...(don't think I would be invited though) anyway, you get my point...my friend was then telling me that we have become lao le...haha, then I was like...ya..18 le...no longer the cute little me...haha, ok, no longer the childish little me...sounds more accurate? Which then comes to the point of still being single...haha, alright, I shall not whine about being single...I shall enjoy my life of singlehood while I still can!! =)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-9164339271758050475?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-91365293183636951382008-03-08T07:32:00.000-08:002008-03-08T07:42:36.108-08:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">hey all...have been pretty much busy(mainly playing wahjong(online mahjong) actually...oops!cuz I think I too deprived of mahjong le) the past few days...and I've gotten back my results...haha, quite bad...abc...shall not elaborate...quite sad...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">ANYWAY, went for ntu open hse today...have a better idea where I wanna go...which is gd...but dunno can go or not...which is bad..haha..competition so tight...never mind! still have one more open house...nus..haha, should be interesting...never been to nus before...though ntu further, I've been there a few times..while nus which is nearer I've been to kosong times..weird...haha..yup...then after open house...went to play lan...so now super duper tired...going to take leave tomorrow...got a sick feeling that I might be sick tomorrow...haha...wish me luck...and oh, tomorrow I have my very first full choir practice...ehh...I'm in an adult choir now...but somehow like not member cuz I missed a lot a lot...that's why this will be my first full choir practice...oops! Well, got lots of catching up...so I won't be slacking much tomorrow morning either...time for some serious work! haha...hopefully...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-9136529318363695138?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-70580287282676757362008-02-27T08:08:00.000-08:002008-02-27T08:22:22.190-08:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">Ehhh...I guess I'm here to blurt out my thoughts for the past few days for this entry...instead of listing the happenings....</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">I realised my life has got a certain pattern now...but I won't go as far as to say that my life has gotten monotonous just that, it is roughly the same...and, sometimes, I'm afraid, I might lose the motivation to go through this certain pattern of life...haha, do I sound suicidal? I'm not...cuz I really have so many things that I haven't done in my life...hmm, some examples include...having a GIRLFRIEND...(yes, I'm desperate...I know), learn how to drive!, find something which I really want to do in life, and a must, which is to provide a good life for my family...so, yup, without having any of this, you know most likely junxian won't jump down. ;P haha, touch wood man! I don't think I would be so foolish right? =x so back to this same pattern of life, I guess, it isn't that bad...cuz I get to meet friends along the way! Yup, I've mentioned this before, and again, damn thankful for that. And I've great colleagues around me as I work...just today, one guy was asking me all the funny questions like, what's the percentage of people taking the mrt and then change to take bus, and what's the percentage of people taking the bus only...he kept on peppering me with questions, till, my colleague noticed it, and told him to just get on the train instead of asking these questions which we smrt staff not that super to know...my colleague wasn't rude...just that, apparently...that person seems to have a screw loose...and he told me he lives near my area....die...I better be careful... =x </span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">ok, that's a penny for my thoughts...haha, be back for more thoughts and happenings! =) take care all!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-7058028728267675736?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-991944459379950002008-02-20T08:16:00.000-08:002008-02-20T08:43:42.071-08:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">haha, I suddenly realised it's been a week since I blogged...hehe, not that I busy...just a little lazy... =x also, I must not forget what I said about blogging more frequent than a certain someone... ;P</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">ANYWAY, back to my life updates...haha, I would say...so far, the past week, not many happening happenings...well, from my previous entry, I'm happy to say I've recovered from my coughing...but...somehow..I can't seem to get rid of that little phlegm in my throat which gets in the way sometimes as I speak...causing me to zhao xia or suddenly muted...especially when I'm attending to a customer...then halfway saying directions there was a word that was muted...the customer goes ??? and I've to say all over again...let's just say, thank goodness this doesn't happen often...so far, only twice...I think...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">oh oh, last friday, I went for my basic theory test...and I passed! haha, it was a good day that day, though a very gan chiong one...morning, study study....then it was off to meet friends(choir mates) and go trial test together...after the trial was the actual one...haha, quite scary...the tests were done using touch screen...me first time...don't know how to use...the screen like doesn't like my finger...no matter how many times and how hard I press, nothing was registered...until the person in charge in the room came to me and told me to use my fingernails instead...haha, and me being a physics student should have thought of that...cuz fingernails have greater pressure then the whole finger...after the tests, went to play LAN!! haha, it was fun...been a while since I've played together with friends..then it was dinner at ramen ten...and I tell you...I sooooooooooooooo regretted ordering the super spicy ramen....two of my friends ordered it too, so I thought I would try...wouldn't hurt to try right? Or so I thought....I took a sip of the soup...and I realised...shit...how am I going to last the entire bowl...it was really really spicy...just talking about it right now is sending perspiration down my forehead...ok, that's a little exaggerating...but you know what I mean...by the time I finished the ramen...I was like totally flooding...flooded with sweat that is...and so..I left the restaurant...with my tongue and throat still burning from the ramen...next time, must know my limits...haha...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">ok, I'm done blogging..haha, till next time...haha, (like watching show...till next time...) anyway, take care all! cya! =)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-99194445937995000?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-69527269504437622392008-02-12T00:17:00.000-08:002008-02-12T00:52:27.154-08:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">haha, just when I thought that I was able and well...the next thing you know...cough cough...haha, yup...coughing like an old man...junxian the coughing old man...that's me for now...dragged myself to work yesteday, was rewarded by seeing friends and my school teacher while on the job...but my coughing only became worse...haha, and here I am, stuck at home now, unable to go out for fear of aggravating my cough....sigh...anyway, I'm here not only to rant about my cough...haha, I shall update on some interesting things that happened two days back and yesterday.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">Two days ago...haha, sound like I'm writing a story...ANYWAY...two days ago, I was sent to dhoby ghaut mrt to cover someone who was having day off...so...it was pretty much boring at dhoby ghaut...hardly anything to do...help a few tourists at the GTM...guide people to go to PS from the north south line exit...UNTIL...a couple were looking at the map...I noticed they were pointing at exit A...but then they went towards exit B...so I went up to them and told them they were moving in the opposite direction...the guy asked if I were eavesdropping into their conversation...I thought I was screwed...I just said that I saw them pointing at exit A so I thought they were heading towards that...but what do you know...the guy shook my hand and said thanks, he said that they were actually heading towards PS...and the girl actually said..."good customer service man" haha, I'm not bragging or anything...but really, that has got to be the best compliment I've ever received in my entire smrt working life...not that it's very long...haha, yup, so that's the ultimate highlight of what happened two days ago.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">yesterday....that fated day...someone was photographed under her skirt by a chee ko pek!! And no, I'm not that chee ko pek if you're wondering...apparently, it was a lao tiko...the victim was very alert...caught the hamsup guy in action and the next thing you know, the cops arrived...a policeman asked me if there was any room for him to search the guy...I was like woah...I told my senior colleague about it, and they brought the guy and the victim to our staff room...it was just nice my break( so qiao right? ;P ), so I went in too...it was quite an eye-opener...looking at how the lao tiko was interrogated...while the victim was giving her recount of the incident...quite scary too...really like in a drama serial kind...anyway, I tried to mind my own business...drinking warm water, resting my aching feet...haha, and it was off to work again...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">haha, singapore isn't that safe after all eh? Chio bus out there! Be warned! haha, what I am doing...like campaigning against cheekopeks...anyway, on a serious note...let's all be mindful of the dangers that lurk underneath that beautiful mask...haha, trying to be chim...but kind of failed...but you know what I mean right? ;) I'm off! cya!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-6952726950443762239?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-29337469145595003602008-02-07T07:12:00.000-08:002008-02-07T07:15:50.896-08:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">ehh...nothing much happened during chu yi today...collect ang baos...eat goodies...haha...that's about it...so sad right...no mah jong...no card game...haha, didn't really get to see many of my cousins either...sigh...tomorrow it's back to work...so I guess no visiting...which means...no ang bao and goodies...haha... =x quite short post for today...cuz really quite boring for today...haha, well, I'm off...Zzz...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-2933746914559500360?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-71001033308854947882008-02-06T08:48:00.000-08:002008-02-06T08:55:04.768-08:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">supposed took leave but was called back for duty...sian...thank goodness I'm not alone...so I'm thankful...hehe...went to school in the morning...wanted to find teachers and friends...manage to do a bit of both...then go play lan for awhile before rushing home and go for work...this time, it's at dhoby ghaut...it was like...damn free most of the time...left us wondering why we were called back for duty...anyway, it was ok in the end...somehow managed to survive...and here I am back at home...feeling sian..haha, oh oh, but cannot be too sian...cuz it's chinese new year today! happy lunar new year to all!!!! =) can't wait for ang bao money...haha.. =x night! cya!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-7100103330885494788?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-43385981129468491732008-02-05T08:30:00.000-08:002008-02-05T08:45:29.579-08:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">haha, today...pretty tiring...went friend's house to play game in the morning before going to work...then it was stand allllll the way till dinner break at 7pm...haha, cuz today only me working afternoon shift as customer service assistant...so, cannot really afford to take much of a break... =x but it's ok...a bit used to it now...just that occasionally really wishing for a break...away from the blur people and black faces...haha..oh, today, finally got to work with a colleague(senior who sits in the control room, haha,) who I've not worked with for a week or so...so yup, it was good finally able to work with her...haha, she kinda gives a reassuring presence. =)</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">today, got to meet another girl who gives me hao gan...haha...yes...I know, i seem to have many girls who give me hao gan...but that's the way I am... =x it turns out she actually works around my working place...haha, no wonder it's the second time seeing her...haha, anyway, that's all for today...night...cya...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-4338598112946849173?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-55180018868148738712008-02-04T07:23:00.000-08:002008-02-04T07:42:15.436-08:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">haha, I didn't go exercise today...nooooooo...I allowed myself to be sucked into computer game... =x next time cannot do that...must not.. </span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">oh oh...today, went to support friend at singing competition in school...it was pretty good...the competition...it was cool...get to see quite a few of my friends...and and...I had a bonus! A girl who I didn't really get to know but she always gives me a hao gan, asked me for my name!!!! haha...I was quite surprised...but..damn happy at the same time...haha...but you know what's the stupid thing? She forgot my name later...and asked me for my name again after that...haha, I guess at least she bothered to ask me again...so another bonus...haha...finally, I get to know her name too..haha, but interestingly, I don't seem to mind not knowing her name, as long as I can see her super nice smile...haha...because everytime we meet, she never fails to smile at me..haha, I saying as though she might be interested in me right...I understand, she is just being friendly.. =) but really, her smile lifts people's spirits...at least my spirit..haha...and no, don't worry...I'm not going to woo her or anything though it's pretty obvious I'm quite smitten with her smile...but I dare say, it's ONLY her smile. =) And I'm not sure when's the next time I'll see her...maybe this wednesday? chinese new year celebrations at school? *cross fingers* haha...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">but kinda wasted...didn't get any contact information...haha, a name's a good start. ;P </span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-5518001886814873871?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-45841929977234164682008-02-03T06:35:00.000-08:002008-02-03T06:49:04.671-08:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">haha, today actually not a very sian day..just that at the end, really super super sian...went to buy new year clothes today...bought a t-shirt and jeans...with my own money! yeah, finally using my own money to buy things...the feeling...supposedly shiok but since I don't quite like shopping...it wasn't very shiok... =x haha, die...if I have a girlfriend who loves shopping...how am I going to tahan...haha, or worse...because I don't like shopping I end up with no girlfriend...haha, why am I thinking about all these...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">ANYWAY, was at hougang mall shopping, then turned out there was the s-pop performance...I only listened to one song, sang by none other than the finalist of campus superstar 2006..I forgot what's her name...haha, all I know is that I find her damn chio and she has a pretty good voice too...next, I went to play lan...which I think is a bad idea...I had fun...but then, it only made me want to play computer games again...I guess that's partly because the anime which I've been watching is completed...for now that is...while the episodes are still being uploaded...haha...SO...come to the sian part...I wanted to play the particular game so much that I was left disinterested in the things I usually do...watch anime and chat online...stupid right? haha, ended up playing old games which I haven't touched for a few years... =x well, I'm off...going to exercise tmr! haha..cya!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-4584192997723416468?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-72843174186262059362008-02-02T08:18:00.000-08:002008-02-02T08:37:18.017-08:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">Today....has been a cool but not so cool day...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">Haha, first, the not so cool part(I always believe in xian ku hou tian ;P )</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">Ehh..it's about work..recently, normally about work...anyway, basically what happened today was that it was crowded at orchard station...as usual...then...a girl accidentally knocked into a middle-aged lady...the lady glared at the girl and said, " cannot see is it?" The girl apologised but apparently the middle-aged lady felt it wasn't enough and continue to glare at her...if looks could kill..I might have to handle a dead person today...anyway, the girl's mum was around, so she protectively told the lady off...guess what, the lady scolded back...and the next thing you know, the girl's brother join in the quarrel...he yelled, " you dare to scream at my mother, u b****"... I tell you...it was damn intense...and all I could do was to hold back the guy and told the family to chill...thankfully...both parties went to their separate ways...and no one was hurt...well..my morale was hurt...haha, after that incident, all of a sudden, my working spirit kind of left me...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">but...in the end, it was ok, endless people asking me questions...so...no time to really be affected by it. =) yup, that about the not so cool part</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">well, the cool part is that today I got to eat breakfast with my jc classmate who I haven't seen for a while...and also, I got to see quite a few friends at orchard! haha, ya, I'm thankful...despite the not so nice parts...once in a while you see a familiar face... which really puts a smile on your own face...well, at least that's in the case for me. =)</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">ok, done for today...cya!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-7284317418626205936?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-9120690463617759142008-02-01T06:52:00.000-08:002008-02-01T07:00:21.610-08:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">Hello, I've decided to try to update everyday so that I won't lose to a particular someone... ;P anyway, today, it's been a super duper tiring day...first thing in the morning, WORK! haha, yup, another day of work at orchard mrt station. It wasn't that bad I guess..more people are getting used to the new exit and no need little old me to direct them...but...as usual...there are always some blur sotongs who just can't seem to read signs and listen to my shoutings...yes...I shout to them about the exact directions and they ignore me...how nice...haha, used to it by now...after that, it was off to snooker with shi fu!! haha, was really excited...but I was disappointing...haha, as in, my game...was way way off...not that it was good from the start, but I played like I first time playing snooker...haha, it was that bad...at least it felt that bad.. yup, so...shi fu ar...so pai sehz...throw your face only...we shall have a much better game next time ya? =) yup yup...that's about today's happenings... ( do you feel as though I just string a whole lot of thoughts into one thought? haha, if it's confusing, please tell me)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-912069046361775914?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-7207686172099273592008-01-28T19:27:00.001-08:002008-01-30T01:04:08.899-08:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);"><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51);"></span></span><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">And so...my job begins...first day of work...8am report at orchard mrt station...yup, that's where I'll be posted till end of february...and very fortunately, I wasn't alone, had a few friends from the training who were posted to the same place...were given a tour of the place and the head told us roughly what we needed to do...directing people to the new exit...away from the old exit which is currently closed...shout shout...people don't listen...they go to old exit...and realised it is closed...they come back in and give us black face and walk to the new exit...haha, but thankfully not all are like that...in fact, most were neutral on the good side, as in, some felt embarassed while others even felt grateful that now they know the right exit. Met so many different people...and so far thankfully no regrets working there...nice colleagues...nice place...pretty much nice public...haha, and now I fully understand how the customer service people feel when they get ranted at, complained to, told off...haha, cuz now I'm on the receiving end...anyway, gotta go...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">Shall keep update on the juicy bites that happen during my working days nxt! =)</span><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-720768617209927359?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-76315707241278081132008-01-28T19:27:00.000-08:002008-01-28T20:27:33.201-08:00<span style="color:#ffff33;">HELLO...haha, talk about being missing for damn long haha..if you are wondering what's keeping me from blogging...shall not tell you...lol...just joking. Been hooking onto anime these days...and guess what? I've gotten my first official job!!! Haha, let me elaborate the happenings during my absence..haha..</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;"></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;">Ok, let's start with after 'A's...I went on to perform for wildempire, an adult choir...and truly...it was stressful...my friends and I had to complete quite a few songs within a few weeks..haha, BUT, it was also a truly fun experience. haha, must thank the people who came down to support, shall not go into names..haha. ;P</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;"></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;">After that, it was off to phuket! haha, yup, I actually went overseas...to those who don't know me...I am not exactly a fan of traveling abroad...not that I'm not interested...just more on the lazy side...and don't see the need to travel...haha, that's me...anyway, it was super super fun, and didn't regret going at all...haha, just that the first day was totally boring...it was a tour of a few popular spots in phuket...not that those places weren't nice...but compared to the second day, really no fight. Why? On the second day I went snorkeling!!! haha, hard to believe...me who can't even swim properly...it was shiok man...haha, and oh, did I mention there were quite a few babes at phuket beaches? Oops! =x and and, I've really lost count the number of chio bus in phuket and of course the not so chio bus...if you know what I mean...one last thing...the FOOD..it was heavenly...haha, spicy and sour food...mmm...yummy...haha, green curry, tom yam soup, pineapple rice...haha, feeling hungry now at the mention of them...well, that's all for phuket.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;"></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;">Next, it was countdown 2008 at esplanade...haha, went there with my group of secondary school friends...it was cool...but not so cool was that the usual place where we went to see the fireworks were cordoned off!! It was all thanks to the IR construction...anyway, we somehow managed to find our way to another spot where it was super duper crowded, and squeezed in to the crowd..though wasn't the best spot, but at least could see most of it..this year was 8mins...haha, still good.. =) then we went cineleisure to play pool!! Yeah, one of my favourite part! hehe, I played my first pool game of the year 2008! haha, it was fun, and thanks to my friend's father, my friends and I didn't need to take a cab. And it was off to sleep once I reached home.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;"></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;">Finally!! The start of 2008....haha, slacking was no longer an option...I had to start working...went to try for relief teaching...was on waiting list...so decided to find other jobs..my friend introduced me a job, customer service...haha, it was very vague...so...went with him to recruit express where they told us what it was all about...turned out it was smrt customer service assistant...haha, it thought why not? Since I don't know when my school would call me...so I went for the interview...haha, it was my very first job interview...so i was very gan chiong...I wore short sleeve shirt and trousers...reaching there...ALL the guys wore LONG sleeve shirt...and some even wore ties...I thought I was so screwed...also, it turned out it was group interview. All of us supposed to introduce ourselves and say why we want the job and what is customer service to us...haha, I was like...die...by the time it was my turn...I forgot most of what I wanted to say...so I just blurted what came to my mind...said something like..."customer service is basically to be there for the people..and the feeling of helping people and seeing them smile gives me a shiok feeling" haha, yup, that was all I said..quite lame right? The rest were like selling themselves, talking about their past job experiences and saying a whole lot more than me...and then I thought, I was REALLY screwed...and so the next few days, I waited for that dreaded or may be and hopefully not so dreaded call...it turned out to be pleasant...haha, I got the job!! haha, my first official job..lol..went for 4 days of training which were basically slacking since quite a few were common sense and a lot of things are not our job scope...but, the instructor was really nice! Super super nice! Give us breaks when we need it, let us off early...and treating us to super gd food on the last day!! At first, it was mutton curry with rice and vegetables...and then my instructor ordered something special. It was quite exotic...ok, fine, quite disgusting for some as we tried chicken heart, liver and neck...and it was pretty good I must say...haha, shall update on the work on nxt post! =) cya!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-7631570724127808113?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-44057116441227167142007-11-17T07:57:00.000-08:002007-11-17T08:19:09.784-08:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">hello...if you're asking me what's coming to an end...then too bad...I'm not saying... ;P but I must say, I'll miss it though everyone else seem to be sick of it...and can't wait for IT to end...haha...what is the "it"..'A' lvls...yup...it's coming to an end for me...and frankly, I don't quite know what I'm going to do after my 'A's...is like, I know I want to do many many things which I was not able to do before 'A's...but then...not sure which to start with and not sure if I'm able to do all of the things..</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">Here are roughly the things that I want to do after my 'A's...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">EXERCISE!!(getting fatter by the day...this must not continue! Also must stay fit for NS!)</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">BUY PRESENTS!!(I'm kinda owing people presents now...oops!)</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">PLAY SNOOKER AND POOL!!!(My hands are like super-duper itchy to touch a cue =x )</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">FIND A JOB!!!(preferably relief teaching...which reminds me, I need to apply soon...later no more applications to be accepted...I will cry...)</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">haha, maybe find a girlfriend along the way would be nice...oops! You didn't hear me say that... =x Alright..I confess...I'm sort of desperate...but I guess I shall be patient for my turn to come. =) Plus, I do enjoy singlehood! Just that, sometimes, it gets to me that the people around me are attached while I'm still single. Haha, what am I talking about...I really am fine being single..(ok, I'm NOT in self-denial...I hope...)</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">Oh, ANYWAY, for all 'A' lvl students whose exams are still not over yet, PUSH ON!!! </span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">It's coming to an end! ;P</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-4405711644122716714?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-70517192333469360232007-11-07T07:17:00.000-08:002007-11-07T07:33:38.826-08:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">Haha, no need to guess what's that path I'm talking about...anyway, I'm not here to talk about that particular path...cuz I think I've talked about it enough...oh, by the way, to the people taking 'A's and 'O's, keep adding oil!!! And to everyone else, continue to strive hard in what you want to achieve!!! =)</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);"> Today..many thoughts came to mind as I was TRYING to REALLY study...thoughts of how things have changed and how life can be so unpredictable at times...haha, sounds like the many people who feel the same way nowadays right? So, ANYWAY, I would just like to say...cherish...which reminds me...I have to cherish the time left I have to study for my 'A's...ARGH! But actually, also to cherish every breath you take, every move you make, every song you sing, cherish your everything. =)</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">PS: Just in case you're wondering about who's the "you" I was talking about...I was talking about you...yes...you...the one reading my blog right now...and of course to my friends and family who don't know about my blog..lol..</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-7051719233346936023?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-7394734455218196872007-10-13T07:18:00.000-07:002007-10-13T07:34:51.111-07:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">hello...yes...I know..it's been more than a month since I last blogged...SORRY...at least I know only two other souls know about this blog so not that bad.. =P anyway, I was just serving the net for information for GP..and yes...GP as in General Paper...unbelievable right...this is what 'A' levels can do to you...as I was saying, I was just serving the net for information...so thought I would blog a bit...just a tiny wee bit... Well...I just realised how fast time flies...yes, like duh...but..just that, it just hit me...quite hard too...I guess that's because I've been pretty much mugging full time these past few weeks to notice the things passing me by..Not saying that I'm hardworking or anything...a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do, you know what I'm saying? ;) If you don't, it's okay, I don't exactly know what I'm saying either. Alright, I'm done blogging about my thoughts which I had the urge to share..take care everyone...I don't know when I would be back... ;P</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-739473445521819687?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-35123755910006140442007-09-02T09:24:00.000-07:002007-09-02T09:30:29.320-07:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">haha, yup, it's mugging time. =) I'm here to wish everyone mugging a happy and fun time mugging[yes, it's stressful, it's tiring and of cuz sian...BUT it can also be fun! =D ] Add oil everyone!!!! haha, maybe no one here to see, but I still wish everybody all the same. =)</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">Sometimes, I question the things that I do...and the things I did not do...and juz can't help thinking..what the hell am I doing??? haha...sorry, I am mugging of cuz... =x</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-3512375591000614044?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-91764173965615655582007-08-25T09:14:00.000-07:002007-08-25T09:29:51.048-07:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">hello...I'm here to say a few words of prayer...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">Pray that she is happy where ever she is.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">Pray that her family will stay strong, and cherishing one another more than ever</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">Pray that their sorrow be eased away</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">Pray that the friends and relatives around them will support them and carry them through this ordeal.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">I'm not much of a religious person...but it seems this is all I can do...(can't help feeling that sick feeling of helplessness)</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51);">PLEASE BE OK!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-9176417396561565558?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-90468290177268141562007-08-20T09:10:00.001-07:002007-08-20T09:21:37.681-07:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 102);">yup, the title kinda sums up my studying pace...oops...but somehow that doesn't seem to be at the fore front of my head...it is 2nd... =x the first...is jam-packed with my emotions towards a few people...somehow, I've allowed my feelings to settle down...not as crazy as before...but I muz say...it still hurts damn badly to let things go as they are going now.. I can feel it fading...something which I dun want(cuz I wanna hold on) and yet at the same time I want(cuz I know my feels will not be requited)...hais...but what the heck...at least that person is feeling alright. =) Yup, c'mon! gotta get'cha head in the books!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-9046829017726814156?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-32960398572846155292007-08-15T08:36:00.000-07:002007-08-15T08:39:28.399-07:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">hello...I am dead tired...though I've only slpt late the past few nights, I feel so crappy le...die...dunno how I survive...but I know, I must push on!!! No matter what, I gotta take care of myself and stop wasting time(including now actually...oops!) so that I can use more of it to slp...my much needed rest!!! ok lahz, is not that bad...just that I seem to be a favourite of getting caught slping during lectures... =x oops! haha, gotta be strong!!! OK...enough...haha, just here to blab abt my tiredness...hehe...night!!! Zzz....</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-3296039857284615529?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-47671539213386373372007-08-09T08:09:00.000-07:002007-08-09T08:25:20.949-07:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">haha, I juz realised my past few entries were really quite emo...I guess I felt I had to type them out as I went through those emotions to feel better hopefully. yup, so I'm pretty alright now...and ready to hit the notes and papers after much slacking the past two days.. =x oops...die, must make up for lost time...then if u're wondering y I'm here...ehh...cuz..since I'm online...so..ya...ok, lame excuse...BUT, I'm pretty sure I wun be here as often to blog..and if I do, someone pls knock more sense into me...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">ANYWAY, back to blogging, juz now I was looking through friendster...and then I came across friends I know from my sec sch choir...haha, I realised I missed them...esp the chio bus there... oops! Juz kidding! haha, kinda sad for me actually...cuz I seems to be one who is quick in moving forward and not looking backwards...as in..moving forward to knowing new friends and not continuing to stay in contact with some of my old friends even though they are gd old friends...I guess that's y now I try to keep in contact with my seniors and some juniors too...in the hope that even as I am busy with my life and new group of friends...I wun forget abt them...yup, gotta try harder..haha, cuz I'm losing hold of some right now as I blog(haha, drama)..but u know what i mean..ok, I think I'm done for today.. and oh, HAPPY NATIONAL DAY! haha...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-4767153921338637337?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-32659362794344921122007-08-08T09:36:00.000-07:002007-08-08T09:42:00.050-07:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">hello...this will be a very short post...though the ones before are not exactly long either...haha...anyway, juz wanna say..I really had fun today...celebrated my old friend's bday and then followed by choir farewell...but here's the thing...after everything, I realised that I had made a mistake...not that it was a mistake going to the places which I went today, but making a mistake not to be someone who simply needed a listening ear...haha, I certainly am krej... I'm done...going to Zzz...night!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-3265936279434492112?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-1241339154125085662007-08-06T09:57:00.000-07:002007-08-06T10:03:38.130-07:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">It's not exactly abt studies...something else...I find that I've really grown from bad to worse...I mean...being paranoid to super paranoid...from expecting...to expecting even more...I'm definitely going a little haywire...haha, a friend called me to say hello, and I wasn't happy juz cuz she seemed not interested(which is understandable cuz she's busy). Why can't I think that despite her busy time, she even bothered to call me...haha...gotta be more light-hearted man...heart so heavy for what? =x</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-124133915412508566?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-18663866689887975382007-08-04T08:24:00.000-07:002007-08-04T08:28:55.939-07:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">ehh...if u're wondering why...it's cuz...I've been a jerk...dun worry, I should be fine tmr..I hope..haha...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-1866386668988797538?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-6171426709579189412007-08-03T09:54:00.000-07:002007-08-03T10:01:17.494-07:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">what my title meant was...it's been studies and studies...so far...and I really stressing myself up cuz I know I have to or I wun do enough work to score well.. =x and then slack...cuz today I went for my sch's film fest! It was great! Funny and romantic for the first film while not so funny and scary for the 2nd film! haha, call me bias, but I prefer the funny and romantic first film to the second one...I guess I'm a hopeless romantic... =x anyway, I must say that I had no regrets going, really enjoyed myself. and I got to see lots of chio bus!! wahaha...my chee ko pek self again...oops! ehh..but that one not quite impt lahz...I agreed to go to support my friends mahz. =) haha, alright...enough slacking for today...studies again tmr!!!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-617142670957918941?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-49198693794573463062007-07-28T22:33:00.000-07:002007-07-28T22:43:07.557-07:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">lots and lots of things happening this wk...ok, not really...it's juz lots and lots of work this wk basically...but there were some happy highlights...like having a gd chat( both heart to heart and crap to crap) with my choir friends through the studying...and</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">not to forget...I managed to squeeze in a round of snooker with my shi fu!!! haha, it was fun...and my oh my...a few wks since I've seen her and she's become more tanned!! Phew! Is it me or is it getting hot in here...? haha, dun bother that comment, juz a teasing and lame joke...anyway, moving on to serious things..not going to see shi fu for dunno how long once she enters sch...going to miss her... and of cuz, I should delve myself into studies all the more now...and I mean NOW...(not much time left!!! argh!!!) haha, trying to psycho myself cuz I haven't revised much since mid-years.. =x well, I'm off! to study of cuz!! ;P</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-4919869379457346306?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-65111275442218372872007-07-14T23:30:00.000-07:002007-07-14T23:49:28.891-07:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">I juz read someone's blog...who is like emo emo emo...haha, I think u know who u r... ;) dun want to say the name...then I kinda got influenced by her...so...my turn to emo...lol..ok lahz, not that serious...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">Juz that sometimes I feel...I dunno what I am doing in my life...ehh, whether studies or personal life...but I think mostly personal life ba...I ask myself a lot of times...the way I treat my friends, the way I feel towards them..., and of cuz the way I feel towards the ppl who I am attracted to...it is not helping anything...but I allow myself to delve in it...and now being emo...I feel like not caring anymore...I dun mean not caring abt my friends...I mean dun care abt how I feel towards my crushes...and juz let things take its course...cuz sometimes the more I try to do something for that someone...the more I dun get something in return...and then I get upset cuz I EXPECT something back in return...which is really really stupid...and I continue to dwell in that upset feeling...and then I become more paranoid...haha, why have I become like this...is it cuz...I've changed? *let out a deep breath* nvm, whatever it is, I must stop it...before someone else gets hurt...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-6511127544221837287?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-43101567420100651572007-07-08T09:28:00.000-07:002007-07-08T09:33:01.756-07:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">Basically today...it's been flying here and there...in the morn, flew to piano teacher's hse...flew back home for lunch...then flew to tpy to play snooker...and then flew back home for dinner...haha, like become superman or something...but it was fun! esp the snooker part...hehe...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">that's all for today...tmr's another big day...my sch having some sort event for j2s where we can wear corporate attire! time to look shuai and impress girls!! woohoo! talk abt being despo...haha...but on the serious side...think should be quite cool...seeing others in super formal wear... well I'm off to lala land...night all!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-4310156742010065157?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-34024625218646585982007-07-07T08:12:00.000-07:002007-07-07T08:43:15.685-07:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">hello...this entry...is thanks to someone that I'm here...haha, but I'm grateful lahz..that at least someone knows abt my blog and wants me to blog... ok...what should I talk abt...it's been like more than a year since I blogged...lol..</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">My life...now...has been pretty much topsy-turvy...have become more evil now...less sensitive towards others while over-sensitive to myself...(meaning I tend to see to my side of the story)...but as they always say...there is always a silver lining...and yup, there sure is for me...cuz I have great friends(one of them who forced me to blog ;P) around me!! haha, the last time I blogged...I had no idea I would come to know more great friends at nyjc...also...I find myself a new fave sport!! Snooker(previously was pool though I still love it)!!! WOO!! haha, all this thanks to my very own shi fu!! haha, yup, I have a shi fu and she is truly my shi fu...though not exactly teaching me how to play, ;P but I learn a lot juz by seeing her play. I am truly grateful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =DDD</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">Studies wise...it's a downwards curve...but I hope that it will go up especially after my piano exams are over! haha, piano exam...11th july...16:24pm...hope I can do well!!</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">And finally, my love life...pretty much zilch...nothing...haha, it's the same story over again for me...as I falls for someone for a period of time...tries to woo her...and gradually...I stop and fall for another again...stupid huh...my friends ask me y dun I go "all the way" (dun think RA pls..) I mean go all the way in wooing her...and I'll answer the same thing...which is...I know it's not love...so if I woo and win her heart but end up I lose the feeling...it would be worse...haha, if I go on and think like this...I would be bachelor sia...lol..I guess I'm the sort of guy who has to know it's truly love to go all the way with no regrets...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-3402462521864658598?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-1142698111679603482006-03-18T07:46:00.000-08:002006-03-18T08:08:31.693-08:00<span style="color:#ffff33;">I didn't do anything except wished her well through sms...If you're wondering who am I talking about...never mind...meanwhile, I shall continue pray for her, and just standing by...</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;">Anyway, today's awesome! Got to see the people whom I love, and caught up with them about their daily lives. So glad I could stay with them longer today. =D Plus we had performances which were just hilarious and meaningful! There was a really nice sharing too. It made me wonder why people strive for some things that do not last even when they know that , the irony of life...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-114269811167960348?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-1142435238127402512006-03-15T06:54:00.000-08:002006-03-15T07:07:18.126-08:00<span style="color:#ffff33;">hello...sorry, I've been lazy lately to blog...anyway, today I have the mood...so I'm here.<br /><br />Ok, overall today was ok...but...just received bad news...I don't mean to make it sound big, but...apparently, the friend whom I've mentioned in my previous entry...is feeling worse now...<br />oh man...it's at-a-loss-what-to-do part 2...I've got a few ideas...but think they're as good as useless...or worse till, causing more trouble for her...<br />Should I visit her?<br />Should I sms her?<br />Should I????????<br /><br />I guess I'll take it step by step and see what tomorrow brings...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-114243523812740251?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-1141915358986732072006-03-09T06:28:00.000-08:002006-03-09T06:42:38.996-08:00<span style="color:#ffff33;">I'm seriouly at a loss as to what I should do...I've got a friend who's suffering and I've not been doing anything to ease her pain...one moment I think I'm not welcomed as she seems to be avoiding me, and the next I feel that I should be there for her despite her ill feelings towards me...Sigh...I guess...I should be happy for her instead as she's gotten a lot of support from her family and friends...and not worrying about this problem of feeling unwelcomed, I should just be there for her and pray she'll be alright...</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;">There were happy happenings today...but...they're really completely overshadowed by the above problem...</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffffff;">Please let her be ok!!!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-114191535898673207?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-1141825388961820552006-03-08T05:31:00.000-08:002006-03-08T05:43:08.970-08:00<span style="color:#ffff33;">Sigh...not in a good mood now...just chased someone away with my noisiness...Am I that irritating? Yes, of course. How can I NOT be irritating...I've been making lots of noises since I took my first breath...Different types of noises at different stages of my life. From crying to cheering, from goo-goo-gah-gah-ing to crapping...and sometimes...just being noisy...So...thanks to it, I've upset many people many many times...Gotta know when to crap, and, shut my trap.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;">Before this moody feeling, I was actually pretty happy with myself. I actually exercised today. Haha, it's been a week since I exercised and boy am I going to die from muscle aches tomorrow...Never mind! It's worth it! At least I hope so... =x</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-114182538896182055?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-1141742310717094852006-03-07T06:27:00.000-08:002006-03-07T06:38:30.730-08:00<span style="color:#ffff33;">Ok, today...it's been pretty much a hectic day though thank God not a draggy day. As in a busier BUT shorter time instead of busier AND longer time. </span><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;">Finally got to meet up with a senior...and realised her attitude's changed a little towards this new environment which I'm in now....which really made me wonder...was it stress that's getting to her? Or...something else...hope she'll be able to cope with it well, whatever it is.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;">Anyway, besides being stressed, at least I found out that I won't be alone through it all...I hope... ;) Ok, I admit, I'm evil...wanting others to suffer with me. Muahahaha! =P</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;">I really really need to be focused now...and hopefully be able to resist temptations...which I've been surrendering myself to... =x I must resist them! I will! Grr...*baring and gritting teeth*</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-114174231071709485?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-1141656029474605042006-03-06T06:23:00.000-08:002006-03-06T06:41:51.620-08:00<span style="color:#ffff33;">I survived in my new environment today! Haha, today's many lectures were pretty good actually...had wonderful insights into some of the subjects...so...now...it's time to register...well, not just yet. ;) Gotta wait for a few more lectures tomorrow and I'll see what happens. =)<br /><br />Oh, besides a new environment, I went back to visit my childhood friends which made me realised how much I'd not been there for them...now I wonder if I were ever a true friend...I may seem to be very helpful and kind on the outside...but...deep inside my heart...I know that there's an ulterior motive...almost always it's like that...I point this out now as I've just offered to help tutor my friend(one of the many whom I've let down by not being there for them)...I tell myself that the reason I offered to help was to make it up for my absence...and also to prove that I truly am a nice guy...but then again...am I?<br /><br />I've been told time and time again, always help others to the fullest and with all your heart. No holding back. I guess that's something I may never able to achieve...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-114165602947460504?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-1141567345080090772006-03-05T05:46:00.000-08:002006-03-05T06:02:25.090-08:00<span style="color:#ffff00;">Haha, there are a few reasons why I mentioned not a bad day.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;">1. I totally enjoyed myself playing pool with a good friend of mine.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;">2. Hmm, that's about it...Oops...</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;">BUT, there's always something bad occuring...</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;">So...</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;">1. I am just given a mission to do, so to speak...I have to watch out for a girl whom my other good friend likes...HELP! I'm not sure if I'm up to the job...low self-esteem I know...but there's a really really good reason...and that is I'm not someone who you'll describe as truly trustworthy. Neither am I capable of controlling my hormones...Shucks...I'm in deep deep hot hot waters...I just hope I'll be able to pull this off and everybody will be happy(doesn't have to include me). </span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;">ANYWAY, tomorrow is the day! My first day in my new environment! I'm ecstatic!!! Haha, probably won't last long. =x I'm being realistic here, NOT pessimistic. ;)</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;">Peace all!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-114156734508009077?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-1141487027231617702006-03-04T07:31:00.000-08:002006-03-04T07:43:47.240-08:00<span style="color:#ffff00;">I made my friend upset by ignoring his feelings. And I just found out that maybe someone just did not want my support...I mean, I sincerely only wanted to be there for her...to help her whenever I could(I guess I went overboard)...and right now, she seems really troubled while I'm not too sure if I'm welcomed to stand by her... so I decided to try...</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;">Or maybe I'm just being paranoid...I sure hope so...</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;">Sorry for such disorganised thoughts...only typing as I think.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-114148702723161770?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-1141402661603173872006-03-03T07:49:00.000-08:002006-03-03T08:17:41.640-08:00<span style="color:#ffffcc;">Today's an amazing day. I'm actually allowed to go where I want to...or so that's what I think...I'm super thankful...and hopefully, God willing, I'll be able to cope well in this new environment.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffffcc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffffcc;">That was amazing in a gd way...here's the bad way...</span><br /><span style="color:#ffffcc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffffcc;">I made someone really angry today...and it seems that she still is and has not forgiven me...sigh...I guess that's ok so long as she's happy and healthy. Plus it may be our last day together and I had to screw it up...</span><br /><span style="color:#ffffcc;">Lesson learnt: Always know where to draw the line, do not ever push it too far. </span><br /><span style="color:#ffffcc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffffcc;">My heart goes out to my friends who are sad out there, hope they will get out of the 'sad' pit and be happy becuz of other things. (basically optimism is the escape rope out of the pit)</span><br /><span style="color:#ffffcc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffffcc;">Damn, my english is pretty bad...gotta improve! Hope to have a wider range of vocabulary! Anyway, I'm just crapping!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-114140266160317387?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23292367.post-1141312450841482462006-03-02T23:13:00.000-08:002006-03-02T07:26:49.770-08:00<span style="color:#ffff99;">the title says it all...those are my feelings right now...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23292367-114131245084148246?l=juz-krej.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>krejhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07554470430112794934noreply@blogger.com0