the feeling is so cock...hoping that my emo-ness will affect her...(which means she cares abt me) and yet at the same time...dun want my emo-ness to affect her...(u want ur loved ones to be hurt mehz?)

yup...here to rant a few things before I go back to my work...

I got a feeling this is going to be a loooooong sem for me...I mean...there are juz too many times that I keep thinking of her...and cuz of that...too many times I put myself down over it....so actually...end result...I dun really care about her...juz allowing myself to get caught up in my own emo-ness....yup....

haha...really ranting here liao...cuz I think I have bothered enough ppl abt it...and is always the same things over and over again....

like my friend said...find someone else...MOVE ON...haha...I am still holding on to 0 hope...and worse still...I am seriously not the kind of guy for her anyway...so even if she does like me(which wun happen btw) I wun be able to truly make her happy...

that's the kind of person I am...

SO....CONCLUSION....I should juz go bang my head onto the wall...haha...get amnesia or something...but I dun wanna forget my friends and family....just perhaps this stupid feeling of lack of self-worth in that person's eyes...

her every action and inaction....drives me crazy....I am really screwed....

Enough rambling....haha...BACK TO WORKKKKKKKKKKKKK!