ytd...they went out to study...through the night...I was invited...kinda last min...but still invited...lol...as much as I would die to go(a bit contradicting I know, die already how to go), I turned down...haha...gave a perfect reason...said that I couldn't stay out late consecutive nights...but I still went back home late ytd night...lol...managed to talk to a few of my gd friends last night...got scolded by them...lol...one of them super fierce against what I am doing...and allowing myself to drown like that...I told him...that's what I chose...but not sure if I am ready to face the consequences...lol...my friend also asked me...if it was worth it....the answer so obvious...

anyway, after returning home last night...I couldn't sleep...kept thinking abt them studying tgt...God knows how much I really wanted to be there...but it was perfect...two guys, two girls. double date u know? haha....me gg would make 5. lol.....I wanted to so much to know what's gg on there..and if there's anything I can help with, I would do that...but I didn't want to disturb them...in the end I did btw...lol...couldn't help it...was a little worried...wondered they would study till what time...basically kept wondering....lol...it was a bad night of slp ytd....

I hope they had fun...and had a good rest as well...cuz that's all I can do....

y do I taste bitterness when I haven't eaten any bitter gourds...