My brother's gonna get married in the US...haha...and I will be flying over for the wedding...during my sch recess week...haha...I might miss 1 or 2 days of school...hmmm....

But...it's worth it!!! it's my brother's wedding!!! haha....at least there is something for me to be happy about in all the stupid emo-ness...haha...

hmm..I caught up with my ex ytd....it wasn't as weird as I expected...but...still...I felt like a total jerk....is like me wanting to take advantage...I was feeling emo...needed comfort...comfort which I knew she would provide...haha...I am such a cock...

anyway, I didn't do it...haha...thank God....

Been really trying to keep myself busy....with friends and family...and I stupidly skipped an outing with the Cambodia group...even though I wanted to go see them and chill with them over super nice dim sum....haha....but...of cuz...if I had gone...then I would probably show my emo face...which would be really stupid...so might as well dun spoil their fun and not turn up....

I know it's a choice...a choice of whether I really want to let go...I guess I am just stubborn...which is plain stupid...y hold on to something that hurts u so bad?

haha....