MY PIECE OF MIND
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MY PIECE OF MIND
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Likes to call himself "krej" I like..
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Monday, March 28, 2011 11:33 AM siannnnnssssssss.... It sucks when you know that you need to let go but you can't because you're still waiting for the impossible to happen... found it on twitter...can't retweet...scared too obvious...so write it here...haha... I should really be doing my work now or slping...but I think I gotta let it off my chest first...before I do anything else... yup...so...another round of emo thoughts...lol...well...actually...I think I am a bit better le...just that...today...she reinforced her point again...the point which really made me emo a lot the past few days...and that is...I am juz like any other guy friend to her....no matter how much I care for her and do things for her...I would only be a friend... and worse still....at the end of it all...I juz got a feeling that I might end up with nothing....I seriously am screwed....is like y am I willing to sacrifice so much for her...and yet knowing there is nothing for me in return....I have come to realise that I chose to neglect my hall friends and always hang out with my course ppl(dun get me wrong...I really like my course ppl...but I like her more..haha...)...is cuz of her....I know it is not worth it...but I can't help it...it is seriously damn cock.... she said this to me...that she wouldn't stay if he wouldn't stay...or she would not be accompanied by her gd friend...but then...what abt me....I have chosen to neglect my hall friends mainly cuz of her....and in the end...I would be left alone....I guess...it's the choice that I made...and I gotta live with it....what a foolish choice that I made... I told her this...I hope when u get attached...hope u dun forget about me...and she said this...u know me...I would neglect friends becuz of bf.... hais...I really dun ask for much....yes...I am still holding onto 0 hope...but at the same time...all I am asking for...is a little more care towards me... my goodness...this is really the first time...my life is focused mainly on 1 person...and it is killing me...cuz there is juz nothing in it for me...no appreciation...no concern....no consideration...nothing.... and the best part is...she will never know...cuz she will be in her own world... yup...so what does all this point to...I GOTTA LET GO DAMN IT!. really wanna scream out..but...realise there is no voice for me to scream out... hmmm....I better go back to normal by tmr morn....got things planned...and I shouldn't spoil it... I feel so used....but that's when I feel I am needed....and that's when I feel I can do something for her...that perhaps she might appreciate it...but at the end of it....I would be alone... she really has no idea how much she means to me...and how much she is hurting me at the same time...haha...is really amazing... previously...when I ask her out for a chat...she wouldn't mind...now...one word from him...and she says no...how easily I am dismissed just like that.... Y AM I STILL DOING THINGS FOR HER WHEN I KNOW IT IS ALL FOR NOTHING..... I really need someone to talk to...lol...  |
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