My brother's gonna get married in the US...haha...and I will be flying over for the wedding...during my sch recess week...haha...I might miss 1 or 2 days of school...hmmm....

But...it's worth it!!! it's my brother's wedding!!! haha....at least there is something for me to be happy about in all the stupid emo-ness...haha...

hmm..I caught up with my ex ytd....it wasn't as weird as I expected...but...still...I felt like a total jerk....is like me wanting to take advantage...I was feeling emo...needed comfort...comfort which I knew she would provide...haha...I am such a cock...

anyway, I didn't do it...haha...thank God....

Been really trying to keep myself busy....with friends and family...and I stupidly skipped an outing with the Cambodia group...even though I wanted to go see them and chill with them over super nice dim sum....haha....but...of cuz...if I had gone...then I would probably show my emo face...which would be really stupid...so might as well dun spoil their fun and not turn up....

I know it's a choice...a choice of whether I really want to let go...I guess I am just stubborn...which is plain stupid...y hold on to something that hurts u so bad?

haha....

Listening to jaylesslee songs now...nothing to do...so here I am...blogging...haha...

Hmmm...things are still the same...keeping myself busy....trying my best NOT to think about it...but always still failing...haha...

But, still...I am thankful for the ppl around me...they keep me gg...haha...can't imagine life without them...family and friends...haha...

It's really nice to be able to sit down and chill with friends...whether a group or one to one...it's comfortable...and so open...no need to think so much...

haha...something that I think not possible with her anymore...lol...

"Her best days will be some of my worst.

She finally met a man that's gonna put her first.

While I'm wide awake, she's no trouble sleeping

Cos when a heart breaks, no it don't break even...."

-Break even by The Script.-

ANYWAY...Cambodia was really great...wanna go back again...wanna teach the kids there again...and there's a Cambodia girl there who is DAMN CHIO and DAMN NICE...too bad could be juz friends...haha....

ehh...besides the current situation....I still have 2 new pretty big things on my mind...

first...I pissed my roomie off...cuz I betrayed his trust by telling our friend abt a few things which he felt should not be shared....then...now...cold war...yes...I am having cold war with 2 ppl who are the last few I want to have cold war with....just great...

and then...the 2nd thing is...my local cip....kena ps last min....now have to rearranged everything within the month....stress stress....

didn't know my life would be so exciting after Cambodia trip....

I should write a song liao....

Title:

Bittersweet.

When we first met,

had no idea,

you would break my heart.

It was always me,

who made things,

worse for you.

So I guess it's alright,

that I'm hurting.

Know you tried,

to be friendly

to me.

But in the end,

u felt discomfort

and left me in the cold.

It took me too long,

to accept that.

It might be too late,

can we be good friends again?

wanna say my feelings are...

Dread. Excited. Uncertain.(if it is an emotion...haha...)

Heaven save me....

too bad for me....haha....at least they are happy....lol....

=x

they played mahjong at her place today....I didn't go...went ahead with my family to catch a movie...

haha...juz nice...I am not there...things were probably better...and so many hes were there...all great company for her...haha...

shit....I didn't even eat bitter gourd and I am feeling super bitter....